yes.i know i should be thankful for my parents.
at least for parents who do not abuse me and really in a way spoil me but still.
have you met more unsupportive parents?
like why can't they just turn up for events i want them to turn up for?
no they cannot.
or being there for me anyway?
no they cannot.
is it out of their league or what?
no.
like i know i've grown bigger but some things that they used to do for me will still be nice if they continued doing it.
of course not like bathe me or something.
but like really give me some moral support by being with me at say my ballet exam.
yes.i know why they do not wish for me to go for so many dance and ballet practices but like since i'm going, why not some positive encouragements instead?
is that too much to ask?
i know they don't want me to be too tired but it's the final lap.
why can't they understand that it's the last leap to the finish and after that it will be so much better?
many say the middle child gets neglected the most.
probably so.
as can be seen by my case.
i have many issues with my parents and probably because i am supposed to be well umm be able to look after self and cause less worry that i am not shown so much love care and concern.
is that it?
if it is i suppose that is why so many teenagers are turning rebellious.
as in not the middle child part but the parents thinking that their children are so very obedient and can look after self so that they do not need to care too much about them part.
is there a need for all children and teens who feel this way about their parents to turn to such drastic measures to get their parents' love?
yes.i know i sound extreme.
well.
i can't help it okay.
the incident have made me think about all the past arguements and fights that have taken place...
and realise how darn unfair everything has been.
i can't exactly pen everything down word for word.
and this will make me uncreadible.
i know.
but it is as if my mind was wired like this.
to forget all the unfair events and incidents that happened to me.
did god make me like this?
did He already want me to be a middle child since birth yet wanted me to forget all the unhappiness being a middle child brings?
it's amazing but i suppose this does make my life happier doesn't it?
perhaps it would be better that i don't remember.
life is probably easier this way...
but i think when i do get hurt quite bad all the painful memories will start flowing back and i will recollecting.
it's interesting.
mrs tian's little anecdotes of her daughter and her when they argue reminds me very much of myself.
the rest of the class would laugh but really i can't bear to laugh because it is so true.
and how mrs tian really treats it as a very laughable matter just shows how parents do not see this as a very impt issue.
because mrs tian's daughter digged out a very old matter in their arguement abt how mrs tian is not supportive of her.(not attending her graduation or smth like that when mrs tian attended her elder daughter's)
it is quite so similar to what is happening here.
perhaps parents mentality is that attending once is enough but has it ever occured to them the significance to each child?
it is more encouraging to each child that parents be there.
parents, no matter how boring it is impt to give support to your child. or children more specifically.
how i wish my parents will be there for me...

yes.i know i should be thankful for my parents.
at least for parents who do not abuse me and really in a way spoil me but still.
have you met more unsupportive parents?
like why can't they just turn up for events i want them to turn up for?
no they cannot.
or being there for me anyway?
no they cannot.
is it out of their league or what?
no.
like i know i've grown bigger but some things that they used to do for me will still be nice if they continued doing it.
of course not like bathe me or something.
but like really give me some moral support by being with me at say my ballet exam.
yes.i know why they do not wish for me to go for so many dance and ballet practices but like since i'm going, why not some positive encouragements instead?
is that too much to ask?
i know they don't want me to be too tired but it's the final lap.
why can't they understand that it's the last leap to the finish and after that it will be so much better?
many say the middle child gets neglected the most.
probably so.
as can be seen by my case.
i have many issues with my parents and probably because i am supposed to be well umm be able to look after self and cause less worry that i am not shown so much love care and concern.
is that it?
if it is i suppose that is why so many teenagers are turning rebellious.
as in not the middle child part but the parents thinking that their children are so very obedient and can look after self so that they do not need to care too much about them part.
is there a need for all children and teens who feel this way about their parents to turn to such drastic measures to get their parents' love?
yes.i know i sound extreme.
well.
i can't help it okay.
the incident have made me think about all the past arguements and fights that have taken place...
and realise how darn unfair everything has been.
i can't exactly pen everything down word for word.
and this will make me uncreadible.
i know.
but it is as if my mind was wired like this.
to forget all the unfair events and incidents that happened to me.
did god make me like this?
did He already want me to be a middle child since birth yet wanted me to forget all the unhappiness being a middle child brings?
it's amazing but i suppose this does make my life happier doesn't it?
perhaps it would be better that i don't remember.
life is probably easier this way...
but i think when i do get hurt quite bad all the painful memories will start flowing back and i will recollecting.
it's interesting.
mrs tian's little anecdotes of her daughter and her when they argue reminds me very much of myself.
the rest of the class would laugh but really i can't bear to laugh because it is so true.
and how mrs tian really treats it as a very laughable matter just shows how parents do not see this as a very impt issue.
because mrs tian's daughter digged out a very old matter in their arguement abt how mrs tian is not supportive of her.(not attending her graduation or smth like that when mrs tian attended her elder daughter's)
it is quite so similar to what is happening here.
perhaps parents mentality is that attending once is enough but has it ever occured to them the significance to each child?
it is more encouraging to each child that parents be there.
parents, no matter how boring it is impt to give support to your child. or children more specifically.
how i wish my parents will be there for me...